I know I have many regrets after my dad passed away.

One of them is not having a job before he was gone. I had a job three years ago, but I quit after a month because it didn't work well for me. Dad wasn't happy about it. I tried to continue to study and become a web developer, but it didn't work out. Years has been wasted. My Dad tried enrolled me in a short AutoCAD course but it didn't work out either. Mostly because I was lazy, unmotivated, undisciplined and so on. Add to that mom's nagging attitude about housechores that left my always on anxious even thought she's out of the house. Another one is between my Dad and my Aunt who helped him through many years. I can't tell it here because its private. But I really regret not doing anything about the problem.

Still, I need to put it behind my regrets of the past and move forward. So that's why I need to vent it out on my journal to reduce my weight on my chest. I will still continue my plan to be a web developer, because its my dream. I want to finish what I started even thought years has been wasted. I don't want to waste anymore years. Life is short and I have many plans in my life. That's why I'm doing my best to study this December to prepare myself to get a job early next year. I better damn make it happen this time. For my sake. So dad would be happy up in heaven. 

Posted by blueside2 on December 8, 2017 at 11:55 AM in My everyday life | Add a Comment
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