As I cleaned up the Christmas tree and decorations, I look back at December. Time goes by...I remember my frugal mom treating me to Greenwich on my birthday. I was planning to eat at Sbarro's but she commenting the servings is too small. I went along with her. One thing I don't like about is she seems to disregard my choice and look somewhere else as its her birthday instead of me. Then when I agreed to partake in Simbang gabi. Nine straight days of going to mass from 9pm-10pm. It was boring at first, the priest's sermons and story keeps me interested. The food in Christmas and New Year's eve were little compared to last year's because. The celebration feels gloomy as losing the father in the house still affects us. Mom is also frugal in spending the electricity, she don't like opening the Christmas lights everyday. For Christ's sakes, the holidays is only once a month and yet...Its was the worse time to be conserving electricity which made the atmosphere even gloomier. My older step brother arrived and stays at home today. Spent his Christmas with relatives in Manila, but spend his time in New Year at home. I just let him be. I still grieve and still feel negative thoughts and negative feelings attack me. I wanted to finish studying the web dev tutorials this month, but I failed. it sucks. Mom and I watched the live action version of the Beauty and the Beast. It was a really good movie. It takes me back in time during my childhood because I've watched the cartoon one before. Sadly, I wasn't able to watch the other movies I've downloaded and watch at Christmas day because mom was watching youtube at the computer and the speakers are too loud.

At New Year's eve, we prepared more food than Christmas as usual. Step bro arrived at January 1st to spend time here for days before going back to his work in the province. Before New Year's eve, I had the chance to go on to see the American styled homes with Christmas lights at Festival Mall which I missed during Christmas eve. I'm glad we can still prepared good food on the table during those special times.

Its a new year and a new look in life. I hope 2018 will be a good year compared to last year. It sucks I don't have money to buy what I want, so I'm hoping to finish my studies and get a job so I can buy stuff.

Currently feeling: calm
Posted by blueside2 on January 14, 2018 at 04:07 PM | Add a Comment
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